bright eyed and bushy tailed
one of my best friends used that to describe how she'd see me in the morning...bright eyed and bushy tailed...right...definately always how i wake up.right now, i'm avoiding sleep. i'm not sure why.
perhaps because....
its only 2:12 and i think my bed time may be later than that.
its a lot less effort to just do what i'm doing, than to close up the computer and close my eyes and just...lay.
i'm avoiding sleep because of something i'm thinking about...
well let me tell you...the first two are true. third, not so much...i mean...im thinking about stuff...because, quite honestly, when are we not? but...do you know when you are thinking about things so much that you dont think you can sleep...or when are are upset, or have a really strong emotion, sometimes the best thing to do is sleep... "i sleep so i dont have to feel" is a lyric from an ARMOR FOR SLEEP song. its so true. is that avoiding issues? i'm not sure if this is the right way to handle feelings or not? huh.
its not like i am sleeping to get rid of the feelings...well actually, ya...i would be...temporarily..and most of the time they are slightly faded when morning rolls around.
hah, ironic enough, i'm getting tired talking about this...i dont really know how i feel about this...so actually i dont know if anyone will read this..but at least i passed some time and got my body to wind down into sleep-mode.
night to all.
posted by jillian @ 3:13 PM
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